thinking about the future isn't fun

i dunny man... thinking about it is quite very scary. I dunno how long I can stay here, and how long I want to stay here. like many of you know, I really wanna be able to go back to TW. but I can't. Here, it's really pretty lonely. I am not good at making friends at all. ( this is actually so very shoking. it appears to me who I am now is almost toally reversed of who I was when I was a kid. I dunno what happened, and how and what have changed. ) It is so paradoxical to me as I am lonely , but I really dont' feel like having a roommate. I don't know and actually don't see how my colleagues will become my close friends who I can hang out with. Don't ask me why, right now I really just don't see that coming. If that is true, it will be so scary. how am I going to live through every fucking weekend YEAR after YEAR??

I have been wondering what T.G.I. Frieday means. I finally were able to find out last night that it means Thank God It's Frieday. But this was not the ponit to write it here. It was during the process, I realized how am I going to Fridays if I can't go with YenLin. well. i know you'd think that's stupid, but ever since I knew YenLin, I've only been here with her.

I have thought about how I will decorate my place once I get it. BUT, if I have no one to share with.. there is really no point.

Getting this job is cool in just a few perspectives, some of these perpective really isn't very cool at all.