i called jenny the other day. she called me a few days back, but I wasn't able to talk. she went to our elementary school reunion, which I very much wanted to go.
we talked for quite a while, then towads the ends, I realized something that I never realized and is such a obvious fact that shocks me so much that again is as scary as my "friend" post.
both me and her are roughly 24. only 6 yrs b/f we are 30. and in fact her bf is about 30, and they have been together for more than 6 yrs. honestly, if she were not my friend, i'd easily think that hey... it's time to get married. 24 and 30. it's perfect marriage age. BUT. i totally totally totally can not imagine my friend, jenny, getting married, and be a wife. I really just can't. HUN???? what are you talking about? but... when u look at it... my god... she might very likely get married in like HUN? what?? 2 years??? in two years, jenny will be married.!! ................... sorry to any one who thinks i am weird... but this is just so ... I can't take it...
we talked about this, because.. actually.. one of our classmates got married.
how did this marry thing come so close in front of our face so sudden w/o me realizing it?? how? how did it happened??
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
more on friends....
這篇，其實我想寫很久了，拖了很久。
來了這裡，認識了 diana 跟 yi lun。I don't think they have any idea what they mean to much.
It's hard to find friends, harder to find good friends, even harder to find friends who you can hang out daily, and do so much together. You need to be very much on the same frequency, in order to hang out for long period of time, large number of times, and have quality times. We have done so much together, and we had so much good time. This perhaps doesn't sound like a big deal to people, but apparantly, I have not had this kind of friendship for the past 5 years, when I was in coollege and grad school. I'd not have a frined who would bring me a drink when s/he goes out of the office. I didn't have friends who would ask me if I'd go freebee with them in the weekend, have lunch and dinner together, watch 3 god fathers together, move around office desks together, spend much time doing vacation prank together, cook for each other, letting each other know good stuff, good deal, and good fun to do. they are friends you feel so comfortable being with. you know you can virutally do any joke on them, and they'll never take it personally, sometimes, even when the jokes are so mean. friends that we know the care we have for each other. friends who you can give a call at 7 pm and go to lakeshore to hang out play freebee, until the sunsets. friends who would bother to joke on you. friends that you know you don't have to watch out what you say in front of them, you don't have to watch out how you behave, it's just plain easy, and just be yourself, true self.
I have no idea how to tell you guys, what this is. This really isn't a friendship that you can't find anywhere else in the world, but it IS a friendship that I have lost ever since I graduated from high school. this really is something so invalubale that I have gained, from moving here.
I don't think they know how much they mean to me.
but this really scares me. as much as I have so much of these feeling, and emotion, I do at the same time have so much attachment on them. this friendship, has, to me grown to a friendship that I depend on. I have grown dependant on this frienship. which also means, if I ever lose it, it will be BAD. very very BAD. AND also, I know, with the way MS is, one day, and doesn't have to be soon, one day, we will part. soon, one of us will move out of building 31, and this bond can very likely be broken. one of us, go to another team, unlike me, would quickly gather his or her new group of friends, and this bond we have at this very present time, will possibliy be broken. I am scared of that. but there is not much I can do about it. I am just like a little baby, will feel so sad, one day we lose it.
one day, they might see this post, if you ever do, let me thank you for this friendship. THANK YOU.
來了這裡，認識了 diana 跟 yi lun。I don't think they have any idea what they mean to much.
It's hard to find friends, harder to find good friends, even harder to find friends who you can hang out daily, and do so much together. You need to be very much on the same frequency, in order to hang out for long period of time, large number of times, and have quality times. We have done so much together, and we had so much good time. This perhaps doesn't sound like a big deal to people, but apparantly, I have not had this kind of friendship for the past 5 years, when I was in coollege and grad school. I'd not have a frined who would bring me a drink when s/he goes out of the office. I didn't have friends who would ask me if I'd go freebee with them in the weekend, have lunch and dinner together, watch 3 god fathers together, move around office desks together, spend much time doing vacation prank together, cook for each other, letting each other know good stuff, good deal, and good fun to do. they are friends you feel so comfortable being with. you know you can virutally do any joke on them, and they'll never take it personally, sometimes, even when the jokes are so mean. friends that we know the care we have for each other. friends who you can give a call at 7 pm and go to lakeshore to hang out play freebee, until the sunsets. friends who would bother to joke on you. friends that you know you don't have to watch out what you say in front of them, you don't have to watch out how you behave, it's just plain easy, and just be yourself, true self.
I have no idea how to tell you guys, what this is. This really isn't a friendship that you can't find anywhere else in the world, but it IS a friendship that I have lost ever since I graduated from high school. this really is something so invalubale that I have gained, from moving here.
I don't think they know how much they mean to me.
but this really scares me. as much as I have so much of these feeling, and emotion, I do at the same time have so much attachment on them. this friendship, has, to me grown to a friendship that I depend on. I have grown dependant on this frienship. which also means, if I ever lose it, it will be BAD. very very BAD. AND also, I know, with the way MS is, one day, and doesn't have to be soon, one day, we will part. soon, one of us will move out of building 31, and this bond can very likely be broken. one of us, go to another team, unlike me, would quickly gather his or her new group of friends, and this bond we have at this very present time, will possibliy be broken. I am scared of that. but there is not much I can do about it. I am just like a little baby, will feel so sad, one day we lose it.
one day, they might see this post, if you ever do, let me thank you for this friendship. THANK YOU.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Sunday, August 20, 2006
我的 monthly diary
晃眼間，我的 blog 已經成為 montly blog 了，從最後一篇到今天，發生了太多事情了
爸媽來了三星期，我看完了我的威風女友（天阿，已經好久以前的是了），他們回去後，我去了芝加哥換了個六個月的護照，見到林小雞。Diana 生日過了。然後yi lun 的媽回紐約了。艷林回了美國，馬上來找了我，然後又回學校要開使新的學其了。去看了被課和，然後現在 Diana 的媽又來了（我們這裡有部間斷的客人～），下星期要去看王建民。這中間，我完成了 Acceptance Test ，下星期 需要完成 Certification Test。差不多從爸媽他們來的前一個星期，我就開始暴忙，直到現在，真是暴忙。幾乎每天吃完飯就回公司。下星期，是我的 BVT 每天早上八點要到。真是太........忙了。
希望這樣足夠做我成為monthly blog的藉口
爸媽來了三星期，我看完了我的威風女友（天阿，已經好久以前的是了），他們回去後，我去了芝加哥換了個六個月的護照，見到林小雞。Diana 生日過了。然後yi lun 的媽回紐約了。艷林回了美國，馬上來找了我，然後又回學校要開使新的學其了。去看了被課和，然後現在 Diana 的媽又來了（我們這裡有部間斷的客人～），下星期要去看王建民。這中間，我完成了 Acceptance Test ，下星期 需要完成 Certification Test。差不多從爸媽他們來的前一個星期，我就開始暴忙，直到現在，真是暴忙。幾乎每天吃完飯就回公司。下星期，是我的 BVT 每天早上八點要到。真是太........忙了。
希望這樣足夠做我成為monthly blog的藉口
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