more on friends....

這篇，其實我想寫很久了，拖了很久。

來了這裡，認識了 diana 跟 yi lun。I don't think they have any idea what they mean to much.

It's hard to find friends, harder to find good friends, even harder to find friends who you can hang out daily, and do so much together. You need to be very much on the same frequency, in order to hang out for long period of time, large number of times, and have quality times. We have done so much together, and we had so much good time. This perhaps doesn't sound like a big deal to people, but apparantly, I have not had this kind of friendship for the past 5 years, when I was in coollege and grad school. I'd not have a frined who would bring me a drink when s/he goes out of the office. I didn't have friends who would ask me if I'd go freebee with them in the weekend, have lunch and dinner together, watch 3 god fathers together, move around office desks together, spend much time doing vacation prank together, cook for each other, letting each other know good stuff, good deal, and good fun to do. they are friends you feel so comfortable being with. you know you can virutally do any joke on them, and they'll never take it personally, sometimes, even when the jokes are so mean. friends that we know the care we have for each other. friends who you can give a call at 7 pm and go to lakeshore to hang out play freebee, until the sunsets. friends who would bother to joke on you. friends that you know you don't have to watch out what you say in front of them, you don't have to watch out how you behave, it's just plain easy, and just be yourself, true self.

I have no idea how to tell you guys, what this is. This really isn't a friendship that you can't find anywhere else in the world, but it IS a friendship that I have lost ever since I graduated from high school. this really is something so invalubale that I have gained, from moving here.

I don't think they know how much they mean to me.

but this really scares me. as much as I have so much of these feeling, and emotion, I do at the same time have so much attachment on them. this friendship, has, to me grown to a friendship that I depend on. I have grown dependant on this frienship. which also means, if I ever lose it, it will be BAD. very very BAD. AND also, I know, with the way MS is, one day, and doesn't have to be soon, one day, we will part. soon, one of us will move out of building 31, and this bond can very likely be broken. one of us, go to another team, unlike me, would quickly gather his or her new group of friends, and this bond we have at this very present time, will possibliy be broken. I am scared of that. but there is not much I can do about it. I am just like a little baby, will feel so sad, one day we lose it.

one day, they might see this post, if you ever do, let me thank you for this friendship. THANK YOU.